A failure? Or just impatient?

I thought I was doing what He wanted me to do, then why was I still failing???

This evening I came home convinced I’m just a total failure. Like, it seemed like literally everything I planned and set out to do today, just. did. not. work. out! And I absolutely hate that!

I started off the day with a really simple plan; two straightforward tasks to do. Then things just kept popping up, one behind the other, each with an unexpected problem and set back 🙄 Ugh! 😒 The worse part, is that I had so many people surrounding me throughout the day to help me, yet I still felt just so helpless.

Then I tried cooking a meal I thought was quite easy and exciting, but it just went sooo bad and there was just nothing I could do to rectify it 🥺. And it’s just one of those days where I couldn’t order a pizza because I’m on a specific diet/fast 😩.

To top things off, the main plan for today to spend time on my business recordings was a major flop. I not only ran out of time before accomplishing much, but the little I did accomplish looked awful and just not worth using.

As I sat in my couch, I just kept hearing the word “failure” repeat in my head😞. So much so that I felt like quitting everything I desired to accomplish. I lamented to God, asking what really is to come of me? I thought I was doing what He wanted me to do, then why was I still failing???

I turned on HGTV to watch “Self-made Mansions” which caught my eyes with beautiful dream homes. But as I continued watching and listening to how these successful couples were able to afford these mansions, it started off with an idea that took many years (9 in this particular episode) before it was successful. It also came with moments of doubt and even debt 🥺. It made me realize how much I had expected to accomplish everything and be tremendously successful on the first go in less than a year 🤦🏾‍♀️ How silly of me.... not that it’s impossible, but why would I put such pressure on myself? Because I’m comparing myself with individuals who have already done their time in building their success. I heard the Lord in that moment say “Be Patient, you won’t believe what you’ll accomplish 9 years from now”, and slowly, all the pressure and disappointment that resulted from that slowly eased away.

I want to encourage you, if you’ve been desiring something and it hasn’t yet come to where you want to be;whether a new business, a relationship, a new ministry, a body weight goal etc... might I urge to wait longer. Be mindful not to compare yourself with others, ESPECIALLY if they’ve already spent many years getting to where they are today.

You’re not a failure, you’ve just got further to go. Wishing you lots of light and joy.

Sincerely,

Sherona