With every new morning, a new mercy

One of the few places you’d find me sitting is in a barbershop, yet today, this particular day you’ll find me here. I’m not doing anything drastic like getting a big chop 😅 but instead I sit across from the main chair, watching my husband get his military trim. This is a big deal for us. It’s the first preparation for him, as he’ll be leaving myself and the girls for the next 10 weeks for work.

We’ve been dreading this moment for weeks, anticipating not holding each other at nights, or just in general 😩. But for me, individually, it’s far more than just not being able to have Nick to hold, it means not having his help 😶 especially with the girls. I can’t help but wonder how I’m going to survive these nights putting this resilient 2 year old to bed, and waking up every few hours with this 6 month old. It means doing all the diaper changes, all the begging and pleading to eat meals, doing all the bending and picking up... It means not getting reprieve when I think I’ve reached my limit 🥺.

As the time draws closer, I try to console myself with the fact that my cousin will be staying with me to help. But even then, it’s just not same, it still does not feel enough.

Then, God draw my attention to what is true. That I’ve placed so much responsibility, dependency and trust in man. In first, my husband and then my kind cousin.

The truth is, when I am weak and tired, Christ is my strength and help. When I feel lost, He is my guidance. When I am afraid, He is my protection. When I am sad and lonely, He is my joy. He is good. He is every thing I need and ALL I need. He will provide for me according to His riches in glory, and indeed His mercies are new EVERY morning.

Though the urge to crumble and worry is so great and is quite natural, I have no need to worry. He’s never failed me yet. He’s kept me these past 30 years, why would that now change simply because my husband isn’t here? Isn’t He so kind, understanding and compassionate that He would care for me even more-so now...

....new every morning, great is His faithfulness.

Sincerely,

Sherona